I'm still here.

its been a very busy week for me. my photography is starting to take off, i've museum hopping like crazy, playing on flickr and getting ideas for different poses for photo shoots, spending time catching up with old friends from long time past, and what little time i do have free, I've been spending it with the the people that take my mind away from all the craziness.
that's it for now. i hope everyone has a great thanksgiving. this year instead of turkey, i think i want to go with crab. why cut with a knife when you can smash with a mallet? why fight over 2 legs when you can fight over 8? why spend all day cooking a turkey when you can steam a crab in a few mins? plus.... who doesn't enjoy crab? if the Pilgrims would have landed in Alaska and was taught to fish by the Eskimos, i honestly feel it would be such a different holiday all together. so pardon a few turkey this year and break out the garlic butter. enjoy!

paralle universe

this is what you get for being bored and having a thing for the discovery channel. i was just watching a show on how all the top scientist in the world believe that there are parallel universes where there are millions of exact copies of every one of us. that when we make a decision, that another version of yourself makes the complete opposite choice in a different world thus making another copy in another universe. really?
now think of all the different decisions we make on a day to day that affect our lives. what would your life have been like if you didn't decide to go out when you really didn't want too? what if i never went to the beach on a certain day? what if i would of tried one more time? what if i would of not tried at all? what if you decide to have Mexican instead of sushi on the day you met your wife for the first time? what if you never had your child? what if you had a headache that night and it happened a different night? what would your child look like today?
just kinda lets me know how lucky i really am to be here. despite all the bad decisions i have made in life, its no where close to all the decisions that i make on a daily basis that had a positive outcome. live on. be happy. look forward. I'll be okay.

together again

to answer the question i have been asked by a few, yes, my girlfriend and i are back together. all it took was to see each other for the first time in a month and it was back to where we left off. now we are able to move forward and see where it goes from here. the future is still unsure but for now everything is going just as well as anyone could hope. wish us luck.

tea for two, two for tea

traditions have to start somewhere. everything that could be called a tradition had to have a first time it has ever happened. so... can you force a tradition, or do you just have to let it happen until it happens so often that it becomes a tradition?

a few nights ago i had a cup of mate green tea and a great conversation in the early morning hours with a amazing woman who also happens to be my best friend and partner. not only could i see myself doing it again, but i can see it becoming somewhat of a tradition. i surly hope it does anyways.

that feeling in your gut

it's odd... you start dating someone, everything is going great. maybe too great. then something happens. something outside to throw a wrench in things. after all is said and done, you are now just friends.
bottom line, it's a break up. but where is the feeling in my gut? where is the since of loss and the anger from being dumped? where is the heart ache and the confusion? where is the hurt? where is that feeling in my gut that i have gotten every other time?
its not there.
its not there because deep down inside this is the best thing that could of ever happened. too fast, too soon, and then the lose of the "honeymoon" stage does a lot to a relationship. especially one as young as what we had. she is, and always will be, one of my very best of friends. if things go back to the way they were, then it's what is meant to happen. if not, then i maintain a friendship which i will value for a long time.
things will work out as they should. i will find my notch, she will find hers. no regrets. i am not sure if our notches will fit together as they once did but at least i know they will be close.

jobs, jobs, and more jobs.

in the past few days i have went from being a full time nursing student, to being jobless, to having great opportunities at two different jobs. one for each of my passions. photography and the medical field.

i have put in for the job at a dialysis clinic in town where i should be working two days, then going to Granbury (next town over) for two days. it will still keep up my medical exp. and it pays pretty good. they were really glad to here that i have already been certified through the state to work with their equipment and are looking forward to me starting. i haven't been told i have the job yet but that is one hell of a good sign.

the other job is strictly to get a little more exp. in the world of photography. it's just a little studio inside wal-mart but i am looking forward to learning more. i know i have the eye for it, and i already have the equipment i need to get started, but its the dealing with people in a studio setting that i am seeking. plus i'll be getting paid so that's a plus. kinda like getting paid to go to college is the way i see it.

for once in what feels like forever i feel happy and stress free again. i know its not the best life to brag about but i an truly happy with it. and i do want to start a family again one day. i feel it's best to make yourself truly happy and find your notch in the world we live in before you try to invite someone to share your life with you.

sum it up to catch it up

I'm 27. that might not sound too old to most people but i have lived quite a few times. I've dealt with death on a few different levels, been married, been divorced, been widowed, lost a parent, been on drugs, got off them, had a son, raising him alone, been to college, dropped out, went back, got a degree, and been working my ass off just to survive.

despite what jobs i have had in the past, or which ones i am working towards now, deep down inside i have always been an artist. i love the passion of life and using Every Emotion (EE) to inspire me. i look down the lens of my camera and see a world that is only for me. a world i try to share with my pictures. http://www.flickr.com/photos/jameskeeith1981/

when i am happy, i see colors like never before. i see the paintings in the sky provided by nature that only few that can see far enough can enjoy. i see flowers, birds, animals, and happy children playing without race or religion to come between them.

when i am sad i see grey. i see the world in black and white. i see the shadows of the world that most people are scared to notice. i see the bums on the back streets of the city trying to stay warm. i see the loss in the faces of people that have suffered.

when i am angry i see black. i see hate and what it brings. i see the results of war and the lives it destroys. i see storms. i see the powers they yield and the destruction that is sure to fallow

i see the world like few can. my hope is to share it.